Tonight I had one of those episodes where you find yourself feeling very much alone in the middle of a crowded room. In an intense moment of clarity I was confronted by a part of my past and I realized just how far removed from it I really was. It's funny to me how something that was so recent within the scale of time can seem worlds away. I see myself growing and changing in ways that I almost thought impossible. Yet here I am. I feel like I am on the brink of something big. Something really huge. I feel like something major is about to happen and I don't know if that means that God wants to use me in a really big way or if I'm in for a really tough storm...but it feels hopeful. I feel like I am about to be a part of something greater that myself--greater than this world. The wheels are beginning to turn and I'm hanging on for the ride.