This Weird Place

I've been meaning to write this week but I have floated around in such a bizarre state of mindsoul lately that I hadn't really come up with any ideas that I feel would make a valuable (read: appropriate to blog about) post. I think God is trying to do something in me right now, but I've yet to figure out what that is. Maybe there's something in the air...I dunno, but whatever it is that's going on...something about it isn't quite as it should be. I think.

See, I'm having trouble sleeping and my mind is constantly racing every which way--even more so than usual, and with an eerie sort of bent to it. Then there's my dreams...which span from watching a good friend of mine die to being hunted by who-knows-what in some sort of amusement park attraction-thing. (Actually, that last one would make a pretty freaky movie script if I felt inspired to write it down.) Not that having weird dreams is out-of-the-ordinary for me either...but all of this is on such an escalated scale that it's really throwing me off. You'll have to excuse my completely ineffective attempt to pin point what it is that I'm trying so hard to write about, but the bottom line is--something is amiss.

At the same time, though, I have enjoyed how this uncomfortability has prompted me to pray more...and I'm listening to Shane and Shane on my iTunes like it's my job. It's like--I feel like something big is about to happen or is happening. And it kind of scares me, but at the same time it is really wonderful to yearn for God in this way. I really wish that my attitude were like this more often. Granted, my prayers feel so repetitive that they even bore me sometimes, but there is a fervency about them that I wish would manifest on a more regular basis.

Anyways, I shall keep you posted if I have any grand epiphanies.